So the line is, "Every form of refuge has it's price," (courtesy of The Eagles) and I can't help but wonder if that's one of those unfortunately too true statements. Actually, before I begin analyzing this, perhaps I should explain for my dear readers who are unfamiliar with my concept.

Statements which are too true are those which are too true are those which are made and although possibly made as a jest, or made as a statement of fact, reverberate more deeply into our little souls than the speaker intended. Instances of these in my own life include pretty much everything I've said that causes too much pondering after the fact and you lot have noticed my chagrin. For instance, the other day I was talking with someone about Orion and said something to the effect of that it's because of him I saw this last year through. Then I turned around and thought about it again and again and again afterwards and hugged my little bear with all my might once I got to him. It's those statements which one makes off-the-cuff often that turn into fodder for extended thought. Clear as mud?

Now, back to the point. I'm not going to lie, I've run away from things in my life. I also think everyone has but my fight or flight pretty much always means flight. There is one pivotal situation where I fought and fought well past the point I ought to have, but infinitely more often than that I flee. I get bored, I get anxious, I get wanderlust...all these things. At this point I've tried very hard to analyze my motivations before I do something and make sure I understand the why of it, but that doesn't mean sometimes I don't want to run away. I also pretty much think that's a natural thinking person's reponse so it doesn't trouble me in and of itself. What does though, is the possibility of fleeing to a refuge that turns into a cage.

To some extent, I think we all run to what we think is safe. We all construct air castles in our heads and then try to effect them in our lives. Again, not a problem. But you have to know the cost of the castle you are building and the effect it'll have on your own life. I guess this is what I think about a lot when I analyze a situation I want to put myself into: will moving/loving/puppy/new client/whatever make me pay a price for it that is more dear than I can pay? Is the cost of being without it more than I can bear too?

(if you made it this far, Ian and Juliuli, this is what the tattoo question was about and no I won't)

Here's to looking for your refuge, and hoping it isn't costly.